untold manifesto
untold manifesto (the ongoing project since 2019) is a metaphor for the emotional process into which i was immersed in each of the episodes; the emotional background that accompanied me in the process of working on the sketches of these projects each time carried a wave of a particular energy that i could articulate in a manifesto. but each time something interrupted the process, preventing me from putting thoughts into form
at a time when my professional career as a scenographer had exceeded my wildest expectations, i found myself reflecting on my mistakenly chosen artistic path; the first episode coincided with the production of the seagull play in chekov’s moscow art theatre and meeting italian visual artist gian-maria tosatti
all episodes of self-reflections related to specific artwork processes
the episodes described below are moments of awareness of oneself in specific spaces at specific points in time - all together they make up the route to real manifestation
episode 2019
YARD-WELL | PLAYGROUND
darkness is coming. pure darkness. as pure as light. shadows dissolve in the dark. darkness enchants. it envelops with its magic.
it invites one to take a step. darkness relaxes. it prepares you to go into a state of sleep. humans have been frightened by darkness. what scary thing can you find in the dark? silence. darkness and soundlessness sharpen your senses
where do you find yourself when you close your eyes?
immersion. the deeper you dive, the more vivid your perception becomes. you're falling asleep, but you're not asleep yet. your body is immobile - your body, but not your mind. you are a receiver of signals. but whose signals? there's no one here. only you. everything freezes. subtly, your senses are heightened. what are you hiding in your darkness?
a playground.
the playground is the place where my imagination returns. what is there? it's where my first fears were born. the primal fear. the fear of loneliness. fear of losing my mother.
a small yard is set deep into a well.
look out. you are at the bottom. this is the space where something started. this is the space where your inner child could hide from you.
echo. echo of your inner child.
that's shifting sands, you might disappear in there. time is running in the wrong direction. but it is only you here. no one else. just you.
every time you go to sleep,
you pass through a phase known as hypnagogia.
hypnagogia or "hypnagogic hallucinations"
is the transitional state from wakefulness to sleep.
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